Goodbye, Tiff. Hello, loneliness.

I have lost her heart.

This morning we talked, and I realized that I must come to terms with how changed things are. I must stop clinging to the futile hope that things can be as they were before. We are different people, and I do not think we can come together again.

Please pray for me. It is not easy, coming to terms with the loss of the only girl I could ever find to love. My heart is broken, utterly and completely, and I can do nothing but lift these finely ground pieces to God, submit to his will, and pray for his healing.

This is part of life. This is what people go through. Pain and despair come into the landscape, but I do know that the Master Artist still holds the brush, and he will paint this sadness into something beautiful. And one day, I know I will rejoice.

But right now, today, for the first time in eight years, I’m lonely. Cold, sad, and lonely. Please pray for me.


  1. Kyriosity says:


    You’re on my list, bro.

  2. Jenn says:

    Praying for you

  3. Luis says:

    Been there before, and I sympathize with the rollercoaster of thoughts and emotions that must be barreling through your mind. Just remember, when one door closes, another one opens.

  4. ailene says:

    Glad you’re not letting go of Him. Don’t. “My grace is sufficient for you…”

    Our God’s got more than enough, actually.

    Faith, bro.

  5. May God heal and give you peace from above! We all care about you Paulo and only wish God’s Best for you and your future.

  6. Keren says:

    will be praying for you :)

  7. Manuel says:

    This is the first time I’ve gotten back online since the long break. Last night, after Sunday mass, I was stuck in the parking lot because of the traffic (people rushing off to Sunday dinner).

    And I happend to tune in to her radio station, and I caught her announcing titles and artists who were about to be featured in the coming minutes.

    I forgot the titles and the artists.

    Because I caught myself saying: “Why does she sound so different now? She doesn’t sound like Tiff at all…”

    So I switched to another station.

    Looks like my question last night (Nov 3, Manila) has just been answered.

    Ingats, p’re…

  8. rowster says:

    hugs, ordo!

  9. Hang in there, Paulo.

  10. Richie says:

    is okay, Pau, you will get over it. as with all things: this, too, shall pass. just have faith.

    am not that much of a religious person, but I do have intense spiritual beliefs – and I believe that you will be okay. just hang in there. you know where to find me.

  11. Abba says:

    Hey Pau.

    Everything is going to be okay. You’ll get through this, I know… You’re strong. And we’ve been through tough times before.

    Still here for you…

    Take care.

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  13. lupuS says:

    When He closes a door, He opens a window…

    I believe in you.

  14. Raffy says:

    You have my number, buddy.